Hi Chris . . . I think confusedstudents problem is alluded to in her sign-in. I may be wrong but it appears she has been approached at a vulnerable time in her life and is now well along in the indoctrination process.
confusedstudent . . . the indoctrination you have been exposed to has the potential to create confusion . . . it is a process designed to control your mind . . . your thinking.
Confronting the indoctrination process can be good for your personal growth, and can help to undo the effects of the indoctrination you have been exposed to.
Re-read Black Sheeps first post and do the research . . . then confront your doubts and fears . . . and question their teachings meticulously . . . you will erase any doubts about their teachings and will soon be left alone.